my grasses abound with snakes

yes i hate everything. i need something to fix the angry and hating, it's unpleasant. i am going to go try some drinking and smoking but i doubt that will make me feel better for longer than an hour or two. a sandwich may improve my mood slightly. i do like sandwiches, if they are good.
i like cheese too. did i mention that? i am very fond of cheese. even though i still feel like i hate everything right now. i should acknowledge it's a momentary phase. i am bleeding. i have a headache. i am suffering from a lack of lunch and it's past dinnertime. my tooth hurts. i meant to go somewhere fun an hour ago and haven't gone yet cuz i feel crappy and haven't found ambition for moving. now it's getting quite late. i don't think i am going to go where i was going to go anymore. sigh. but i should consider feeding myself some tasty food item. then i will go someplace and intoxicate myself with overpriced beverages. blah.

dizzy dizzy dizzy in thee fucking head

florida tornadoes and oranges
funny how words repeat in my brain
are my sheets stained w/ orange juice, milk, or cum?

actually, i just did laundry the other day.

screaming cows porn acid god glow
orange

orange tinted porn-stars with fake tits.

yuck.

orgasms, ogres, jesus...

'i'm talking to myself again'

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America you're an inhospitable bitch who cares little for her people
the everyday ordinary sorts that are your backbone
America what's wrong with you?
you need to drink more milk, learn to appreciate calcium
that's supposed to be a metaphor
like you know, backbone... appreciate and strengthen your backbone...

Guess what?

I ain't no Ginsberg.

need more drugs
only half homo

whatever

America one penny three dimes a nickel
2 rechargable batteries needing to be recharged
a red button for luck
a gold plastic card good for money in the bank, if I had some
a receipt from a chain sandwich shop
my id w/ a pic of me with orange hair
not quite smiling
a worn plastic telephone card
a student identification card
radio k music lover's card
deli stamp card from co-operative grocery
magnetic card good for all summer's city bus rides
red library card
medical insurance card
greyhound card with schedule to duluth, mn

(and that's just my right pocket)

America, I need bigger pockets. or more of them.

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indeed indeed that could ramble on forever... a work in progress, for future revision. only the beginning. yup.
what're the current references? hmm

America I want to learn about the Black Panthers
I want to learn about traditions of resistance to
your headstrong selfish ways

America, I might be an anarchist
or at least a socialist
but it's unAmerican
to think or read of such things
so I can't make up my mind.

America, you're either with me or against me.
and I suspect
I know the answer to that.

America, my Mom took me to gay bars
when I was a kid,
even slipped me a sip or two
of her beer...
--

;)
yep, the possibilities for this are endless indeed indeed. but i have other things to do. things of grand importance!